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From the journals of Rob Horne, an irrigation contractor living near San Diego. He calls his journal “Backward Rain” because once described his work in irrigation that way.

May 6, 1966 – Friday

This trip to Japan must really have shaken me up inside even more than I realize. I�m not really afraid any longer because I�ve gotten used to the idea of moving but something deep down inside seems to be bothering me.

For instance the first night after I found out I was going I had a terrible dream. At first I was asleep and the next moment I was in my mother�s room telling her that she had forgotten to give somebody, I don�t know who, his insulin. I was deathly afraid because I knew whoever it was would die without his shot. Finally mother convinced me that it was a bad dream and I went back to bed.

Lately I�ve found it very hard to sleep and this reflects on my physical characteristics. I�m always tired and run down and my face is a little broken out. I guess this isn�t too unusual, after al anybody would be a little nervous when they�re moving to another country.

Other things that are happening are that I find it harder to talk. When I can think of something to say I have to talk slower or I�ll mix my words up. I could be imagining everything, maybe I�ve been this way all along.

I found this piece by taking today’s date and using this random number generator to come up with a year, and then subjecting the whole lot to Google. Lo and behold, I pull a 37 year old journal entry out of some guy’s online diary and it’s about dreaming.

“I could be imagining everything, maybe I’ve been this way all along.”